Friday, October 7, 2011

It is Friday.

I really do wish people would go to school to actually learn. I'd love to go to school then.

Sometimes I feel really annoyed of myself. I am constantly thinking of things that a normal teen wouldn't. That's not a bad thing at all. But being one of 'them' is so easy, and that's why I need to understand that that's exactly the point. The easy way out, is absolutely not the right way. Like the band. The Fray, said in their song All at Once, "Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same."

And it's weird to think about the shallow worthless lives of the people my age around me are living. In school, I think it to myself all the time:

Where the heck am I?
Everyone here is so dumb.
I need to get out of here.
Why are they all talking about the weirdest, most pointless things?
WHYYYY do I always sit at this lunch table of self-centered freaks only to regret it two seconds later?
Ewww.
What time is it? I can't wait until school's over today so I can get away from these people.
I can't wait until I am in college.
Scratch that; can't wait until I graduate college and move to Pakistan.

Because I have disgust for the adolescents of my town, I always just want to think about only change, inspiration, God.
And it doesn't get me anywhere. Why? Because hating people while praying to God Allmighty is useless if I am preventing exactly what I am asking from Him. I need to stop disliking people because it's wrong, and that's what I need to do before truly asking the Lord for help.

“Nothing is difficult if you seek it through your Lord, Nothing is easy if you seek it through yourself.”
-Ibn Ata’allah

So last night I came up with like 5 or 6 poems. Most of them just came to me. Here's a couple of them. Enjoy.

Raindrops & Disdain. Aysha Adrees. 10.6.11

                Raindrops of faith
                Fall into my palms
While I hold up my soaked hands
to make a prayer.

The raindrops must
evaporate
for the process
to start again.


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I was of desperation,
Left behind
the important.
Caught up
in frustration,
I do see.
And now, I am of
humiliation.

Hint. The raindrops symbolize, or are equivalent to, faith. The message is actually quite simple. (:

Much love,
      Aysha


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